Clomiphene

If any of you have been keeping track like I have you would know it's been 5 months. It's been a long 5 months at that. For me at least. I wish that I could report that I went to the dr and did all that I could, but I didn't. I lost some weight, so that's good and the dr said he was proud of that. I took my BC everyday like a good little girl, and started on metformin. Anyways, my dr appointment was last Tuesday, the 5th. I was so super nervous and it totally doesn't help that I always end up waiting FOREVER at this dr (thank heaven they have tv's in the room). So, after my nearly hour wait the dr came in to chat it up. So, he looked at my blood work that we got done in November and then looked at me and said, "so you ready to start clomid?". I could not express my excitement! Clomid (clomiphene is the real name) is supposed to help you ovulate. So... the funny part, the dr gave me a schedule when to take it and when to do "it" lol. It was funny because you could tell he was a little uncomfortable telling me, which, hello! you are an OBGYN! Oh, well! So he tells me all the info, gives me the prescription and tells me good luck! The cutest thing is he says, "hopefully we'll see you in a few months to discuss where you'll deliver" Oh, too cute! :)
I left on cloud 9! I don't think it's a secret to anyone that I want a baby. For cryin out loud, Jess' mom told me that she asked her "crystal" if I were going to get pregnant this year and it said yes, then they narrowed it down to July, and I would have a girl. Can I tell you that I secretly hold that as hope? lol. Anyways, I guess it can take 4-6 months before you get pregnant (which would put me around July lol). He started me at a little higher dose than usual and upped my metformin. I am glad to get the process started and now just need to practice a tad bit of patience and we'll be in business. lol.
I know the day that I take that positive pregnancy test it will make it all worth it... let's just hope it'll be sooner than later! ;)

3:17

If you are looking at the time you are correct when you see that it's 3:54 AM. For the last few months I've been having the same flippen problem with my sleep. Every night I wake up at 3:17. At first I was like, ok there has to be an alarm set somewhere that is waking me... nope. So then I tried all of these relaxation tricks... nope. Then I tried talking myself into NOT waking up... worked for 2 nights. So... here I am. The weird thing is, I'm not that tired. Like, my body is getting used to waking up this stinkin early. Super. Sometimes Bryant will wake up if I get out of bed and he gets so irritated. It's funny. He's like, what are you thinking about? That's the thing... I'm not thinking about anything, but sleep. Usually I'll just lay in bed and try to go back to sleep. Today I went up and checked on the kids because Natali is sick.
Ya, so if anyone has ever had this happen to them and knows how to stop it... I would GREATLY appreciate your help!! :)

My Little Diva, Natali

Natali has always danced to the beat of her own drum and it's super funny. She is a crazy, wild, super loving little girl. Lately she's been soo funny with the way she dresses. Usually I try to tame it for school (in fear that some kid will make fun and trample on her little heart) but I've been letting her "create" more and more. Her new thing to do is layers. I'm not sure if it's because I put a tank top under almost all of her shirts (I'm trying to teach her modesty and I remember wearing undershirts) but she doesn't just do it with her tops. Another thing she's been doing is tucking her jeans into her new PINK Uggs she got for Christmas. It is sooo funny! She always loves to accessorize, too. Earrings, gloves, scarves, the works! I love that she has her own sense of style, it is just too cute! Yesterday she told me "I love that I look so pretty all the time" lol. Not only is she cute, but modest! lol. I took some pictures of her cuteness just so everyone could see!

Funny Kids

I was looking through some of my pictures on my computer tonight and I realized what funny kids I have. They have such unique personalities, yet sometimes I swear they are the same person. My sister Amy and I went to the zoo in November and those were the pictures I was looking through tonight. Some of them were just too funny. As tired and frustrated as I get I could never imagine my life without them.
Though I will admit that going out for a "mommy night" with Amy Kelly the other night was much needed and felt just a little too short! ;) When I was leaving Natali asked me where I was going, I told her for a mommy night... Vanni started jumping up and down yelling "no mommy night, no mommy night. You here." lol. I did enjoy not having to break up fights or remind kids to eat during dinner and a movie that wasn't rated G was so nice! ;)

My Heart Will Heal....

I have no comment on the following story that I read when I was just trying to check my email today. My heart stopped beating. My former love has moved on. Though I am madly in love with my husband, this news was still a shock to my system.


Matthew McConaughey is going to be a dad. The actor's publicist Alan Nierob told The Associated Press on Tuesday that the actor and his girlfriend, Brazilian model Camila Alves, are expecting a baby. McConaughey is excited, Nierob said.

"Got some blessed news," the onetime Sexiest Man Alive posted in his online journal Tuesday. "My girlfriend Camila and I made a baby together. It's 3 months growin in her womb and all looks healthy and lively so far. We are stoked and wowed by this miracle of creation and this gift from God, and so excited for the adventure that will come in raising this child, being a mother and a father and shepherding him or her through this life."

McConaughey goes on to say, "Wish us the best, keep us in your prayers, and God bless evolution".

What more can I say? I guess we all have to move on...

I have issues....

I knew the moment we set up our Wii I was in trouble... I just didn't know how much trouble. I guess I'm a little competitive (competition is not a bad thing)and sometimes I may carry it to the extreme (I've played well past midnight so I could beat Bryant's score on a game). I even find myself telling the kids they can go to the park so I can play and not have to share with them. Can you believe that? What kind of mother does that?!
So, to feed my illness today I bought Guitar Hero for our Wii. I can't tell you how bad I wanted to call my friend to see if she would drop off my kids from school so I could run home and play it... Are we seeing my issues?!

Time Out!

This weekend has been crazy. I'm not sure that I spent much time out of my pajamas. lol. Sad, isn't it? Actually, it was nice.
Friday night (I was out of my pjs then) we went to our friends house, the Anderson's, to have dinner and play games with our other friends, the Burroughs. We enjoyed having nachos then playing Guitar Hero and some kareoke game. It was our first time hanging out with either couple but it was so fun! Bry and I had never played Guitar Hero before... Bryant's first attempt he did really super well... I on the other hand, couldn't get it. I sucked. lol. Now I'm on the hunt to buy it for the Wii. Of course everyone has been sold out for weeks! Depressing! lol
Saturday we did nothing. Literally. We got up late (yes!) and then watched Ratatoee. I fell asleep during the movie. We then had lunch and took naps! It was seriously a beautiful afternoon. We were supposed to go to our Ward social on Saturday night but I was much too lazy to get everyone ready. I know, sad, isn't it? So instead we stayed home and played choots and ladders. The kids enjoyed it!
Yesterday we went to church and I started getting this horrible headach so I went home after Sacrement and slept it off... while I was there the Bishop announced that a sister in our ward who was expecting was having some "complications" and asked that our ward family keep her in our prayers. Being the compassionate service leader I knew I'd hear more. So, this sister was 8 1/2 months pregnant and the baby died. Today she had to go in and deliver the baby. My stomach was sick when I heard. I could not imagine ever going through anything like this. Tomorrow I'm supposed to go visit her and see what she will need help with. Her husband is in the military and is away (I'm not sure where to) but was able to come home just for this week. I don't know what to say to this poor lady. I know that nothing I will say will bring her comfort. It's just a horrible situation.
Along with that, another sister in our ward lost her brother suddenly last week and another sister is having a baby on Friday. There is a lot going on!
I am so greatful that our ward is as helpful and close as it is. I feel that at anytime I could call any sister and ask for pretty much anything and she would do it.
Anyway, that's a brief summery of our weekend. Oh, and I'm planning Jess' bridal shower, so if you know of any fun games... Let me know!!!